Day 5...This is only the 5th day...

It feels like an eternity! I went to church today and I feel alot better about my situation. I am so ready to give all of this over to the Lord but it is sooo hard to let go. That would mean to me that I would need to give up the perceived control that I have. Ohhh I had someone hug me today and I melted, it felt soo good to be held, especially by this person and I have decided that I need to try and avoid it. When someone holds you and they have genuine concern you really latch on to it, so I need to not put my focus on that and ask the Lord specifically to give me that feeling again with my husband. But the real question is do I really want it for me or do I want it for my daughter. I pray that I get the answers really soon.