Day 3...Terrible

I have been told that when things start to get harder you are living your live correctly, I think this is a lie. I went against everything I said I would do today when I opened my mouth to my husband and I am feeling even more like just packing up and moving on my way. It is so hard to be nice to someone when they really don't deserve it. But I guess I really don't deserve it as a Christian because I was born into sin and Jesus died for my sins. I really am not liking this walk but I will try to recompose myself and continue to ask the Lord to order my steps and keep my mouth shut.